25 Apr 2009

In my Lack

My fault, my failure, is not in the passions I have, but in my lack of control of them.

At Hills

24 Apr 2009


You cannot control what happens to you, but you can control your attitude toward what happens to you, and in that, you will be mastering change rather than allowing it to master you.
At Spain

22 Apr 2009


I can't tell you how much I love getting card from you, and how much happiness it brings to my day. I miss you more than you can imagine...

21 Apr 2009

It's a strength

If there's a crisis, you don't freeze, you move forward. You get the rest of us to move forward. Because you've seen worse. You've survived worse, and you know we'll survive too. You say you're all dark and twisty. It's not a flaw, it's a strength. It makes you who you are. I'm not gonna get down on one knee, I'm not gonna ask a question. I love you, and I wanna spend the rest of my life, with you.

20 Apr 2009

The more

The more I'm afraid of something, the more I know I have to do it. I figured that out when I was a kid. I can lead a protected life, hiding away from the scary world. Or, I can take on the things that scare me the most. The more it might hurt, the more I might die doing it... the more worth doing it must be.
At Midtown

19 Apr 2009

FMS - Fear of missing something

I wanna believe for all of the rest of us who are flailing around in this abyss, trying to feel what we're supposed to feel in order to connect in meaningful ways.
I wanna believe that real, true connection among human beings is actually possible and supposedly, marriage connects us, I mean supposedly, it improves our moral fiber and all which begs the question, I mean why do these crazy, creepy, defending-the-family crusaders

At Tokyo

17 Apr 2009

Nice guy syndrome.

#1: He's So Nice, He Can Only Be a Friend

#2: He's So Nice, He's Not Challenging Enough

#3: He's So Nice, He'll Always Be There

#4: He's TOO Nice, You Can't Trust Him
.... I mean.. really?

13 Apr 2009

When I ...

When I'm scared, I micromanage.
When I'm uncertain, I overstate and when I am challenged, I belittle and rush out.
at Spain

9 Apr 2009

at any given moment the brain has 14 billion neurons firing at a speed450 miles per hour.we dont have control over most of them when we get a chill, goose bumps.when we get excited , adrenaline.the body naturally follows its impulses which, I think, is part ofwhat makes it so hard for us to control ours.of course sometimes we have impulses we would rather not control.....that we lather wish be had.
but the body is a slave to its impuleses. the thing that makes ushuman... is what we can control.after the storm, after the rush, after the heat of the moment has passed.we can cool off and clean up themesses were made.
At London